Monday, June 23, 2014
The night we found out about our boy's condition we had spent the better part of the afternoon in tears. We were at a place where we could cry no more. Our hunger had caught up to us and we knew we needed some comfort food. It was late but we knew Dairy Ette was still open. Now was the time for delicious grease and homemade root beer. I'm sure we looked like a wreck, eyes puffy from the salty tears, noses rubbed raw from Kleenex. Our order probably seemed as though we hadn't eaten in weeks: 2 frosty mug root beers, 2 hot dogs, 2 grilled cheese, 2 sides of pickles, 3 corn dogs and a side of Tums.
As we sat eating we began to talk about what we would name our little guy. We knew we needed a name soon as we began telling others his story and he deserved a great name. While processing through the hundreds of search results for names we came across the name Asher. It stuck out as a unique, cool name and as we looked up the meaning of the name, we were sold.
Asher: fortunate, blessed, happy one
The more we thought about it we felt this name was perfect. How could a boy with all of these issues carry a name of fortunate, blessed and happy? How does that fit you might ask? Ultimately Asher will be healed. We believe that with all of our hearts. We are unsure if it will be here with us or in Heaven with his Savior. So we believe he is fortunate because he has a Creator who knit him together and is in the process of redeeming the brokenness (including anencephaly) all around us.
If the Lord takes Asher home to Heaven he will never have to experience the broken world we live in, but will spend his childhood inside the Pearly Gates. What better of a place to grow up? If He heals him here on Earth what an incredible story he will have. Either way our boy is fortunate, not because of an outcome, but because he has a God who loves him enough He sent to His son to die for him, and for me, and for you.
That is the kind of God Meagan and I cry out to on a daily basis. One that heals, One that comforts, One that ultimately will allow His glory to be shown in the toughest of circumstances. He is in the process of bringing restoration to a terribly broken world. When Jesus died he provided a way of redemption that was perfect. His redemption isn't based on our actions but solely on us knowing Him; living in community with Him.
That is where we are right now. Allowing Him to hold us tight and guide us through the pain. We believe He gave us Asher for a specific reason, to love him and help him point others to Jesus. What greater story could be written of anyone's life, that it was used to its fullest and pointed others to a God that loves them. Asher's life has meaning because the God of this universe is giving it meaning. We rejoice in that. We find peace in that. We find hope in that.
- Asher's Daddy
P.S. We have decided on a middle name: Rowan, in definition: little red one. Asher Rowan Burkley, the fortunate, blessed, red one. :)